This is my first blog and I feel a bit vulnerable to be honest but I have looked myself and there are not too many trichotillomania blogs etc
I have managed in the past to go over 100+ days pull free and the regrowth was coming along well but alas I got stressed and started pulling again... and here I am.
I hear people saying aghh "I bet your pulling your hair out" or "I'm pulling my hair out"
everyday, and I cringe with the heaviness of my secret inwardly thinking yes I am.
I hate so many things about having trich heres a little list:
1) I'm almost bald and barely able to cover my hair in a ponytail.
2) The effect that it has on my close family seeing the damage and not being able to do anything =(
3) The white regrowth
4) The coarse hairs that stick out
5) Being out of control
6) Feeling like a freak
7) The utter devastation that I feel when I look at myself
8) Wishing I had hair like off the tv adverts
9) Only being able to wear my hair up in a messy bun, no way down.
10) The strange rituals that go side by side with trich.
There are soo many more but at the moment I cannot think. I have pulled today, sat with a little mirror in the bathroom picking the remaining (not that theres a lot left to pull) white hairs out.
I am hoping to connect with other people that this effects and to try to make non trich sufferers understand it and not mock it.
Here s a pic I just took on webcam.
hi
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